Apparently, I'm selfish. I try my best to please everyone around me and well, sometimes I just get so tired. BUT HEY, I'M SELFISH.
Sometimes I just don't get it. How can people be so ignorant? Oh, and why do people overreac so dramatically? I'll admit, I have my typical girl "o my god" moments but when it comes to the things that matter, I try my best to be RATIONAL. Even if I swear (in my case it's usually a severe case of word vomit) I usually don't mean what I say. It's just that my tongue seems to be swifter than the neurons in my system.
I'm so hurt that I can't even begin to describe the pain I'm feeling. The disappointment...is just so overwhelming.
What do you do when your all isn't enough? How do you handle the second blow to your healing heart? (SEE, I'm being SELFISH) Wallowing in self pity isn't it?
I'm sorry I wasn't what you wanted me to be. I'm sorry I was myself around you. I shouldn't have. I'm sorry for not understanding your need to be dramatic. I'm sorry I didn't just stand there and be your punching bag. I'm sorry I loved you. I'm sorry I trusted you. I'm sorry I believed that you believed in me. I'm just so sorry for everything. I'm sorry it's ALL my fault. I'm sorry I don't want to fight. I'm sorry I was going to give you what I owed you, I'm sorry I'm not good enough. I'm sorry I let you in, I'm sorry you let me go. I'm sorry my hopes are gone. I'm sorry you wasted my heart.
11 comments:
dude whats up? time heals, my very normal advice and hmm...no pain no gain? yeah. dont ask..hope all's good over there see u soon kays? :D ANYTIME AFTER THE 14TH!!! wheeee!!!
tread carefully - these are dangerous waters. always, always mean what you say and say what you mean - not doing so would be a premature goodbye.
t-man, is it really fair to judge anyone here until and unless you know the whole story?
lies? interesting. how come you never explained what has happened also? why restrict it to your point of view only? and there are also loads of NEW things in here which i'm not even aware of. interesting, yet again.
anyways, i know the truth, so do you, but unfortunately none can be found in this post at all. even the title itself is misleading. even your SMSes are also contradicting if compared to this.
so much so for the "lies and lies and lies." but then, if this makes you happy, why not? good luck.
eh, itu lies not abt u lah. *slaps forehead*
see lah... and you tell me you don't overreact. can you RELAX. I thought we were cool already.
ok, let me rephrase my reply since certain people wore their undies a little too tight today.
tharuman: you don't get to call him names. but thanks fr reading.
shanuja: i'm js so sick of this. you're luckly you got outta it. on top of that, people are js spreading lies and blaming it on me.
btw, i watched RAFI playin footie js now. i had an AMAZING day. im so hanging out with him next friday lah. crazy hot man.
michelle: i guess i'm so used to people understanding me...and well, he's kinda melodramatic, blowing things outta proportion. but hey, sometimes good things come in weird ways. at least we both can breathe and i THOUGHT we were cool already. probably not since he got offended AGAIN. hiyo...HAIYO.
i didnt call him tat k ( as im not suppose to know about nething...) It was just a general statement... n how did u know it was me? TC and have a great d'vali
( Im stil hurt with wat u said but the fact that u """""""WENT OUT""""""" wif me last saturday is slowly healing the pain)
n im sorry........
u dun deserve the guy in the first place...u dun deserve sum1 u dun understand..
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